- This Layout Took Me 8 Hours -
*cries*
Yeah, that's right. I took 8 freaking hours to code this layout. Designing took me like... an hour or so. ARGH. The page is still a little buggy. Like the fading buttons.
But that's the script problem. Not mine. Heh. Oh and the "QP-Chaos" symbol you see here was made by me. It's my original work. So don't fucking steal kthxbai.
First time I started doing layout coding from scratch. You heard me right - FROM scratch. I started on Notepad with a few online HTML tutorials opened. Ah well, now I know how to do CSS and tables now. Boo-yah!
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Forgotten @ 9:15 PM
- I got enough poems to release a CD -
Yeah. If only I can sing. AND make songs. Ah well. Poems are poems. I love writing them. It's the only time I can be myself completely.
Ok here it is. My 13th completed baby. *proud* =)
All I Got Left Is My Passport And A Whole Bag Of Regrets
©Quarter Past Chaos
Watching the world pass me by,
I watched the time slowly ticking away.
As the sun sinks into the horizon,
I stood by watching until the last light fades away.
What have I done?
Did I, I let you down somehow?
No one to save me from myself,
Save me from this nightmare.
No one to hear me when I scream,
All alone in the middle of nowhere.
As the rain falls down to earth,
It seems like the world is crying for me.
My paper heart keeps tearing apart,
I can't take this anymore. Save me.
No one to save me from myself,
Save me from this nightmare.
No one to hear me when I scream,
All alone in the middle of nowhere.
What have I done?
Did I, I let you down somehow?
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Oh yeah, I'm also in the process of making a new skin for this depressing blog. Yay. Yeah, hopefully it will be colors this time. XD
Whee~
"Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.."
-Hello (Evanescence)
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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- Hooked On Alternatives. (Warning: It's Contagious) -
Hahaha may or may not be. But I absolutely LOVE their songs. OMG. Love love love. I'm sooo hooked to alternative rock right now. O_o
Anyway, I'm gonna share their music with all of you guys. Just listen or save them, you pick. The songs will autoplay if you decide to preview them. Let them load for a while.
Artiste: Anberlin
Track Name: Paperthin Hymn
Album: Never Take Friendship Personal
Play :: Download
Artiste: Anberlin
Track Name: Audrey, Start The Revolution!
Album: Never Take Friendship Personal
Play :: Download
Artiste: 30 Seconds To Mars
Track Name: A Beautiful Lie
Album: A Beautiful Lie
Play :: Download
Artiste: 30 Seconds To Mars
Track Name: The Story
Album: A Beautiful Lie
Play :: Download
Artiste: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Track Name: False Pretense
Album: Don't You Fake It
Play :: Download
Artiste: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Track Name: Disconnected
Album: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Play :: Download
Love them? Buy their album. XD
"I wanna be your last first kiss.."
-Inevitable (Anberlin)
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Forgotten @ 11:27 PM
- Yay I published all my poems out -
Just because my laptop is crowded with stuffs. And it took me forever to find the files.
But the real reason is because my song folder got soaked in the rain, cause I forgot to close the window. =(
Bah. The words are all smudged. *sigh* At least I got the soft copy saved in my laptop. Heh.
Click on the 2nd 'X' navigation button. Feel free to read them and laugh.
Laughter a day keeps the doctor away. XD
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Forgotten @ 3:52 PM
- 6th Baby -
"I'm Sorry" Can Be One Of The Hardest Thing To Say ("Forgive Me" Is The Next)
©Quarter Past Chaos
Looking in your eyes,
I can see nothing,
Just my own reflection staring back at me,
Reflecting my mistakes,
All my lies.
And none of them are yours.
I know it's all my fault. Cause that's what I see.
Let me break free. Let me start over.
I know I've been a real bad person lately.
Let us start again. Let us forget about the past.
We can make it better,
Just give me another chance.
What goes around, comes right back around,
What goes up must always come back down.
When I look at you, you took my breath away,
But now I need to find the courage to take it back.
Coz I know,
That it's useless trying to conceal the fact.
To deny everything what was real,
When you obviously saw it with your own eyes.
I've wasted your time, I'm truely sorry.
I know i've been a real bad person lately.
Let us start again. Let us forget about the past.
We can make it better,
Give me another chance.
With every step I take, (it's another chance for me to screw it up.)
Each time you forgave me, (it's another chance for me to do it again.)
I took everything for granted, (I know it's wrong.)
Now that I realized it, it's too damn late.
Give me another chance.
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 3:51 PM
- 5th Creation -
Quarter Past Nine
©Quarter Past Chaos
This pain is unbearable,
Burning right through my heart.
But my fate is inevitable,
It's starting to tear me apart.
Check the time now (It's a quarter past nine.)
Why aren't you here? (Shouldn't you be around?)
Turn the lights on (I know it's getting late)
Well you are not here. (Coz you're already gone)
Isn't that what you always wanted,
To hear me cry behind closed door?
Is that why you are here,
To see me broken on the floor?
This pain is no longer,
Hurting me like it did before.
I've put my past away now,
.I'm ready to spread my wings and soar.
Check the time now (It's a quarter past nine)
Why am I here? (Just to tell you goodbye)
Turn the lights on (Coz it's getting dark)
And I am not here (Coz I'm already gone)
Seeing you in the mirror,
Staring back at me.
Taunting me, mocking me.
Telling me to live your dreams.
Let's fly
Check the time now (It's a quarter past nine)
Why am I here? (You told me to)
Turn around now (Before it's too late)
And I'm not here (Coz I'm already gone)
Closed my eyes, took a step.
Felt the wind rushing through my hair.
Flapped my arms and tried to fly,
As the sudden silence cuts through the air.
I opened my eyes, everything was white.
It faded away and I looked around..
I knew it. I could take flight.
Then I saw you lying, bleeding on the ground.
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 3:50 PM
- 4th One -
This Doesn't Have A Title Yet, Maybe I'll Think Of One Later
©Quarter Past Chaos
Lived through a thousand lives,
Told everyone a thousand lies.
Making up stories as you live on,
Shattering the truth from reality.
You're a perfect picture of disgrace,
A failure for the human race.
But can it be true?
Tell me can it be real?
Is this who I really am inside?
All these times I couldn't see,
Beyond the truth, what was beneath.
I thought I knew who I was,
There's no way this could be me.
Confide in you, my darkest fears,
Trapped in emptiness, drowned in tears.
Darkness surrounding and swallowing me,
Blocking my visions till I couldn't see.
Rescue me from this sorrow,
Rescue me from this pain.
Coz it's slowly driving me insane.
Can it be true?
Tell me can it be real?
Is this who I really am inside?
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 3:49 PM
- 3rd Creation -
When It Comes Tumbling Down (Stop Staring and Do Something About It)
©Quarter Past Chaos
Happiness was never meant to be,
It never lasted long, anyway.
She thought at first, she missed him.
Then she realized she missed who she thought he was.
She always heard love makes people blind,
She always thought it was just a myth.
She always thought it was just a crazy saying,
Between two souls lost in love.
But, he lifted her up,
Lifted her spirit up high.
He carried her though,
Out of the roughest storms.
She thought what they had was special,
She thought what they had was real.
She thought for once she found true love,
But sadly that wasn't the deal.
She shed not tears but blood for him.
She wasted not money but time on him.
Why did she let herself believe she was in love?
Why did she let herself believe that he loved her?
Pain didn't hurt so bad,
When that's all she's ever felt.
The scars might not heal in time,
But she can deal, she can deal with it.
And he brought her down,
Beaten up again.
He never bothered. Never cared.
Left her broken on the floor.
His hands she used to take.
Now are the reasons for the scars on her face.
He was really just a fake,
She should've seen that coming from the start,
Happiness was never meant to be,
It never lasted long enough.
For her to realize love can be blind,
Failed to see who he really was inside.
Why did she let herself believe she was in love?
Why did she let herself believe that he loved her?
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 3:48 PM
- Chaos 2nd Creation -
The World Would Be A Better Place If People Would Just Shut Up and Listen
©Quarter Past Chaos
Tell me.
What is it about beauty?
What is it about perfection?
Tell me.
Are we all lying to ourselves?
Are we all fooled by what we see?
Aiming to be perfect,
In this less-than-perfect world.
People trying to be what they aren't.
Lying to themselves and everyone.
Are you listening?
This song I'm trying to sing.
Are you listening?
To the cries of the world.
Are you wondering?
What could happen next.
Are you listening?
Listen close to me.
Tell me.
This world we are living in,
Broken and scarred.
Forgotten about others,
While thinking about ourselves.
Can we change the way we live now?
Aiming to be perfect,
In this less-than-perfect world.
I can hear every word you are whispering,
But can't you hear what I'm screaming?
Are you listening?
This song I'm trying to sing.
Are you listening?
To the cries of the world.
Are you wondering?
What could happen next.
Are you listening?
Listen close to me.
It could help if we just open our eyes.
See the world beyond the surface.
Trapped in a never ending chain of lies.
Let us break this. Let us break free.
Are you listening?
This song I'm trying to sing.
Are you listening?
To the cries of the world.
Are you wondering?
What could happen next.
Are you listening?
Listen close to me.
Listen close to me.
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 3:46 PM
- Chaos 1st Baby -
The Mirror Not Only Tells The Truth, But A Whole Lot More.
©Quarter Past Chaos
Couldn't make a sound,
Couldn't move an inch.
Tears in my eyes.
Blurring the vision that surrounds me.
But all I can do is watch,
Just watch you walk away from me.
I tried to call your name,
I'm crying out over
and over again.
The vision of you keeps haunting me,
It haunts me in my nightmares.
The darkness is drowning me slowly,
Swallowing me, swallowing me down.
Trapping me forever inside,
Inside my own dreams.
Why won't you just die and fade away?
The sleepless nights that followed,
The endless days that come and go.
I couldn't forget about you,
Thanks for all the memories we shared.
But now all I can do is wait,
Wait for the emptiness to go away.
I tried to call your name,
I'm crying out over
and over again.
The vision of you keeps haunting me,
It haunts me in my nightmares.
The darkness is drowning me slowly,
Swallowing me, swallowing me down.
Trapping me forever inside,
Inside my own dreams.
Why won't you just die and fade away?
Tell me
What is it about you that makes me smile?
Tell me
What is it about you that makes me laugh?
It's just not there anymore.....
Please tell me...
I tried to call your name,
I'm crying out over
and over...
The vision of you keeps haunting me,
It haunts me in my nightmares.
The darkness is drowning me slowly,
Swallowing me, swallowing me down.
Trapping me forever inside,
Inside my own dreams.
Why won't you just die and fade away?
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 3:45 PM
- Another One Of My Creations -
"You Make Up One Theory After Another, Refusing To Face The Simple Truth"
©Quarter Past Chaos
Look what I've done,
Everyone could see we're happy together.
But the moment we're alone, only then you show your true colors.
Is my cry just a soundless screaming echoing through your walls?
Are my cries another lullaby for you at night when you're sleeping?
You brought me hope, only to destroy me with it.
Makeup and smiles can cover up all the pain I'd gone through.
But no matter how many scars I've had, how many tears I've shed.
It kills me everytime to realize that I'll still love you.
Look what I've become,
I've been really ignorant lately,
No man should abuse me, I know I deserve better.
I'd make up my own theories that it will get better someday,
Refusing to face the simple truth of what was in front of me.
You brought me hope, only to destroy me with it.
Makeup and smiles can cover up all the pain I'd gone through.
But no matter how many scars I've had, how many tears I've shed.
It kills me everytime to I realize that I'll still love you.
Is my cry just a soundless screaming echoing through your walls?
Are my cries another lullaby for you at night when you're sleeping?
No matter how many times I've fallen, (No it doesn't matter)
But it hurts me everytime, it hurts me eachtime...
You brought me hope, only to destroy me with it.
Makeup and smiles can cover up all the pain I'd gone through.
But no matter how many scars I've had, how many tears I've shed.
It kills me everytime to I realize that I'll still love you.
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My 12th baby. =)
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 2:45 PM
- Yeah! I got a skinning blog. =) -
Which is gonna be my guinea pig for my skins. LOL! I already made an account on blogskins. I should be making skins and submitting them soon and get criticized. Yay. I love criticism. =)
But my HTML knowledge is like REAL shallow. So pardon me, if anything looks fucked up or something.
Hah. Alright here it is! I already got a skin ready that needs a few more tweakings. Don't blame me, I like gothic stuffs.
I'll TRY to make some cute ones X_X.
Chaos'-New-Skinning-Blog-With-Her-New-Skin-In-Test
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Forgotten @ 3:45 AM
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- I'm Baaaacckkk.. -
Yeah, I'm back after my uh... short hiatus.
Anyway, I realize my life is not really very exciting to blog about. No body wants to read stuffs like, today I wake up at this time, then later on I do this, then I do this, and then I sleep. LOL.
So what I'll most probably do is either:
a) Eat a cookie
b) Write something totally random but it worth reading
c) Quotes some quotes
d) Keep publishing my poems
e) Just hide in my room until the penguins have gone away
and of course
f) RANTS!
Haha! Thought you can get away from the evil R-word huh? Nope, it will keep coming back to haunt you over and over again. And then your eyes will start to glaze over until you realize that this world is indeed fucked up.
Oh and do take your time to read this letter:
There is always the subject of who means to me the most. That's right my friends, I'm talking about Gerard.
For many years we had been together, and it was a joyous times. I stood by his side as his dreams came true, of being in this amazing rock band - My Chemical Romance. I watched and felt the blood, sweat, and tears put into this, and I was never so proud in my life.
We would tell each other our fears, I would keep his head warm when he was cold, and he would brush me when I was upset, it was the ideal relationship, and I have never loved anyone as much as I love him. But the many times he told me that he loved me, and how many times we made love, it was all lies.
I remember that day, as we were together in the garage and he told me it was over. It felt like a thousand knives stabbing into my little hairy heart, and tears immediately sprung to my eyes, and I asked him why it had to be this way. I loved him, I cared about him, and he was all I had. He told me that it just had to be this way, and took the electric shaver, and cut me out of his life.
I laid there helplessly on the concrete floor, begging, crying, pleading for him to take me back, but it was the end of it.
After nearly a year of deep counseling and a prescription of Prozac, I was able to get back on my feet. But nothing will ever be the same. The way I fit perfectly to him, the way we went everywhere together. The laughs, the jokes, the songs, the shows, and the friends we made as well as the enemies. I still don't understand why he left me, and maybe it will always remain a mystery to me.
When I saw that he had moved on to someone more blonde and shorter than me, my heart broke into a thousand tiny tortured fragments every time I see the two of them together. All I want is to climb back onto that beautiful head and hide behind those pretty hazel eyes of his, be able to tell him everything is okay, and to be cradled by his gorgeous fingers running over me. He was my only love, and will always be that way. I still love him, despite the torment and heartache he has put me through.
His new hair just isn't good for him, and they aren't a perfect match. Does it match his facial hair? No. From what I've been told it doesn't stay the same shade of black that fades back to my color. That's a true sign Gerard. And was I ever hard for you Gerard? All I ever wanted was to be brushed every now and then. You didn't have to maintain me or cut me, just love me as much as I love you. I love you Gerard, forever and always.
Love,
Gerard's Hair
Hahahaha. Of course they got back together in the end. Gerard with his old black hair, just like before. Heh. =)
Guess you could say "and they all lived happily ever after"...
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Forgotten @ 5:34 PM
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- I got a headache that won't go away.... -
Geez... The throbbing in my head won't stop. It's throbbing right in the middle of my head, between my eyes. Like... UGH. I can't move my head around too fast. Or see things that are bright.
Could be another migraine.
Should stop thinking so much...
I think I'll explode one day. My head just going Ka-Boom!
And then you'll see pieces of my brain scattered around. And there's smoke coming out from my neck, from where my head should have been.
Like cartoon. Heh.
Ok, it is pretty gross in real life though.
Gah. I'm a very troubled girl. Troubled about everything in life. Everything from what I should do in the morning to the situation in Africa. It's like...
Why can't I just let life be the way it is?
Why must I question about it?
Why am I so bothered about it?
Why am I asking you?
=(
Le Sigh. Ah well, I need sleep.
EDIT: Oh I made it to the 3rd top rated user on Iconator with 4.67/5 stars today. Awesome. Not that anyone or I cared. Just thought it would be a nice memo for me.
"You bring me hope, only to destroy me with it..."
-Quarter Past Chaos ("You Make Up One Theory After Another, Refusing To Face The Simple Truth")
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Forgotten @ 2:47 AM
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- Called a Time Out -
E taleta du lymm y desa uid du drec namydeuhcreb. Ed'c hud naymmo yh official pnaygib. Zicd y meddma desa uvv vnus aylr udran. Ruf muhk femm ed mycd? E tur'd ghuf. E tur'd ghuf fro pid E zicd vamd mega paehk ymuha vun y frema.
Josh teth'd megat ed. Pid ra ihtancduut.
No your computer is not infected with a virus. It's just written in code for some reason. I hope everything will turn out okay.
Le sigh.
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Forgotten @ 5:02 PM
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- Will This World Ever Comes To Peace? -
Virginia Tech Massacre - 16 April 2007
To the families of those affected, you have my deepest and sincerest sympathy. To the victims. May you R.I.P.
You know, we only inflict this upon ourselves. If only people never discriminate, or outcast others, this would never have happen. Doesn't he realize that by doing this would only bring matters worse?
Why would someone invent something like a gun? To hunt for food? Or hunt for fame?
Power means everything in this cold sick world. Our hunger for power grows more and more each day. For what? Do you REALLY think you can control seven billion individual minds? And do you REALLY think you can live forever with this power? And do you REALLY think that making everyone the same would work?
I'm not trying to make everyone the same. Cause the last time someone tried to do that, over 11 million people have lost their lives.
Oh I know. Because people don't THINK anymore.
I guess what Lulu said from FFX said has got some truth to it.
"You make up one theory after another, refusing to face the simple truth..."
Every day there's blood shed. Every day there's fights. Every day there's people dying in Africa for the lack of food and people here are trying to starve themselves to be a fucking broom stick.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?
Have we becoming more materialistic? Money equals happy? Is happy no longer a feeling that can be seen and felt by the heart?
Smiles and makeup can cover up a lot these days don't you think?
Have you really gone insane? Have you not know the meaning of life anymore? We have gracefully tainted the word life, lying to ourselves and just didn't bother about the situation.
I'm happy with my life. Why should I bother for others?
It makes me sick. I'm writing this in my room. And I'm crying.
I really don't understand. I've been living in this world for 2 decades. I thought the world was a happy place. I never really opened my eyes. I am trapped like a bird in a cage. Never knowing what the other side really looked or felt like.
Now I know. We humans disgrace ourselves.
We called upon wars to liberate people. From what? The only thing you're liberating is innocent souls from their bodies. Do you really think killing people would solve it all?
The world is a slow, silent time bomb.
Anytime. At anytime. Chaos and pandemonium would be unleashed.
Thus my signature name was born: Quarter Past Chaos
I think that would already be too late. Too late to stop. Stop what we have done.
15 minutes of Chaos would be enough. Enough to end the world.
Isn't that what we all want? Peace?
We're not gonna achieve peace by wars. Cause in the first place, wars are not peaceful AT ALL.
You think soldiers are not humans? You think they are just a item? Like a pawn being played in chess?
You think this is a GAME?
There's no 'continue screen' after you lose your life. You only got one chance.
And what's this? You found water on Mars? You wanna move to Mars, invade it, pollute it and make it fucked up like how you made Earth now?
Are we gonna invade to the other 8 planets as well?
Yeah, I guess it's really a BUMMER that Pluto isn't a planet anymore. One less planet to invade. What a loss huh... GREAT, TERRIBLE LOSS. -_-
What has Pluto ever done to you? Naming something a planet and then saying it's just a rock afterwards is insulting. If you name something, keep it that way. Don't go back on your words and change it. Pluto never did anything to us. It has never taunted us.
Fucking jerks. Can't you leave the galaxy alone? Concentrate on what is within our reach. What is around us first. Solve this crazy fucked up situation before deciding that Pluto is not a planet.
Maybe we can't solve it.
Maybe it's grown so much, it's beyond our control.
I know not all is at loss. Some people are trying to save, trying to salvage whatever is left that makes us human. But it's not enough. You think a single ant can defeat a bird?
It's just gonna get eaten by the bird - by someone of a higher authority.
Which brings us back to square one - Power.
Argh. I just wished this situation would get better. I think the polluted air is making us all crazy.
I'm just gonna finish writing my poem - Venting out all my anger. My frustrations.
I can't do anything.
I'm most likely to be ignored.
I'm just an ordinary girl.
I'm a small girl with huge dreams in this vast world.
I'm useless trying to change what is around us.
But...
I do wish to help.
Thanks for hearing my voice.
"Remember that time when we're just kids, we see everyone as one - As kids. We play with anyone not bothering if you're poor, rich, black or brown. We don't categorize. As long as you know the rules to the game, we'll get along fine. And we'll teach you the rules if you don't know... How I wish it was like that now..."
-Quarter Past Chaos
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Forgotten @ 3:07 PM
- I had a weird dream.... -
...About blood.
Tons and TONS of blood. It's soooo freaky. And I'm not a huge fan of blood. Although I love Gothic and Grungy stuffs, blood is not my cup of tea.
If it's not mine, I can faint or feel dizzy at the sight of it.
Yeah. I got haemophobia. Or a fear of blood.
I woke up at 3 in the morning. When I slept at midnight.
Definitely not enough sleep.
And the weird thing about my dream?
I was alone in this room. The walls are smeared with blood. The floors... Even the ceiling. And the most scariest part is... I heard laughing.
It sounded just like me. But I know it wasn't me laughing.
It's not funny I know. Blood is and will never be a funny business.
It freaked me out.
I woke up in cold sweat and found myself entangled in my comforter.
That dream seriously got me freaked out. In fact I got so scared of falling back to sleep, I went to play FFX until the sun came up.
Now I'm feeling dizzy. I need to get some shut eye.
"The only reason we die is because we accept it as an inevitability... Ahhh..."
-Stewie Griffin from Family Guy
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Forgotten @ 9:16 AM
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- LOL -
I got a script for auto-responding in my MSN. I love MSN messenger Plus! You should go get it.
Anyway, my first tester is none other than my bitch, Josh.
His respond?
│ т ω i ѕ т ε d ◦ ω н i ѕ ρ ε я ѕ™ │ says:
WTF?!
│ т ω i ѕ т ε d ◦ ω н i ѕ ρ ε я ѕ™ │ says:
this is crazy shit
│ т ω i ѕ т ε d ◦ ω н i ѕ ρ ε я ѕ™ │ says:
it's sooo goddamn fucking irritating
│ т ω i ѕ т ε d ◦ ω н i ѕ ρ ε я ѕ™ │ says:
and it lags the FUCK out of my laptop
│ т ω i ѕ т ε d ◦ ω н i ѕ ρ ε я ѕ™ │ says:
it could be entertaining
│ т ω i ѕ т ε d ◦ ω н i ѕ ρ ε я ѕ™ │ says:
but i dont wanna talk to a bot
Bleh. Ah well. Like what he said, it could be entertaining to some. LOL.
I'm hungry.
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Forgotten @ 11:31 PM
- I'm Anti-Abortion. Think before you do anything stupid. -
I found this when I was surfing around.
Month One:
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
Month Two:
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.
Month Three:
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
Month Four:
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month Five:
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?
Month Six:
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor calls it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make it stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP ME!! Mommy!!!! . .
Month Seven:
Mommy, I am okay. I am in God's arms. He is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me Mommy?
I cried.
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Forgotten @ 5:21 PM
- What time is it now Mr Wolf? -
Hahaha... Remember that game from childhood? Heh, good times... Maybe I'm from a different era than some of you. Yeah, I'm a dinosaur. LOL.
But seriously, it's 4am and I'm wide awake. Geez. Should stop drinking coffee. X_X Ok, I'm guilty!
I broke my promise and drank coffee today. T_T
Such a sin.
My system is once again filled with this delicious and addicting stuff... Oh gawd.
I should stop blogging at every few hours. But I'm so bored. I don't know what else is there to do.
I'm like... crazy.
Yeah. 4am rantings are usually filled with nonsense. This post isn't much different.
You shouldn't read this. But humans will be humans - we're curious.
The more you say no, they more they will do it. Like, you shouldn't do so-and-so, yet over 99% of people will do it.
I'm just gonna blabber whatever thoughts that comes out.
AND, I'm like... addicted to FFX. T_T
...Gaming lingo starts now.....
Lulu said one phrase that will be forever stuck in my head now. This was on Kilika when she spoke to Wakka:
"You make up one theory after another, refusing to face the simple truth..."
Wow. I love Lulu. She's sooo hawt and shmexy. XD Auron is cool too. Unsent or not, he's so awesome.
Anyway, yeah. I think I will use that quote as a title for one of my unfinished works. Gawd. I love it.
I still refer to Aeons as GFs, Overdrive as Limit Breaks.... Cause I love FF8 no matter what.
Blitzball? I seriously suck at it. I can't compare the stats during breakthrough. LOL. Yeah, I know. I'm that retarded. I usually just watch my brother play.
And my brother is a crazy leveling dude. He's determined to get 255 stats for everyone. >_> He already defeated Sin without the stats. But since he wants that... Can't stop him.
Some dude killed him without leveling and no sphere grid mods.
I'm confused about FFX's timeline. Tidus was brought a thousand years into the future... and then it was 10 years ago when Jecht, Braska and Auron defeated Sin...
*is confused*.... What?
Nevermind, I suck at maths.
-End of gaming lingo-
Ah well... Guess I should sneak back into bed and pretend to be asleep. This post is filled with useless stuffs. LOL.
Not that anyone actually cared.
If you're reading this, I guess you're bored as hell too. =)
"I'll believe all your lies, just pretend you love me..."
-Evanescence (Anything For You)
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- Ugh.. -
Chaos woke up this morning with a throbbing headache. It's so irritating.
But she did manage to make her way down to Recruit Express and Kelly Services. Hope she can get a job ASAP.
Want to buy a guitar. Cause her brother wants it too. So maybe we can share the prices or something.
Need to lie down and stop talking in 2nd person. Could be a fever coming up soon. Her feet is feeling cold.
"A watch tells the time but can never turn it back..."
-Quarter Past Chaos (Dissonance)
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- My Echo? -
My Echo -
©Quarter Past Chaos
It's whirling in my mind,
I'm treading on the surface and
Have nowhere else to go.
I'm calling out for anyone,
But all I hear is the sound of my own echo.
Come save me from this loneliness,
Killing me from the inside.
Come save me from this emptiness,
Can anyone hear me?
All I hear is the sound of my own echo.
All I hear is the sound of my own echo.
Screaming back at me.
Come save me from this loneliness,
Killing me from the inside.
Come save me from this emptiness,
Won't you come and find me?
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O_o
I don't know how it got that like this.
I was messing around with Photoshop when I suddenly got hit with an inspiration to write.
So okay. I got out my pen and paper and the first thing I wrote was "
Echo".
Sometimes I don't know why I write such stuffs. So I wrote whatever I thought echo could be. And I got... what you see at the top there.
I have a 2nd me writing stuffs for me. O_O Sounds pretty weird but that's how most of my writings are born.
So this is my 11th baby then. Whoo.
But "
I" seem depressed in this one. Wonder what's wrong. =/
Oh Jared Leto is.... sdghskljfigwenfma. I can't describe it into words. Ok reality check. But how can anyone at 35 look like THAT? He's old enough to be my dad. Haha! Dad. XD But... ARGH~ LOOK AT THIS.
Ok fine I'm weird. VERY weird. Stay away from me! XD
And I need sleepz0rz. =(
"Don't hang up on me cause I'm hung up on you..."
-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (Disconnected)
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 2:33 AM
- Because I'm Crazy Like That -
I love love love love this sooo much. Why?
Click here and find out for yourself.
I made it myself. Hah! Now that I got nice brushes to use, I could be making blogskins sooner or later. Muahahaha! Spreading my word of evil all around.
Err.. I mean. Spread the love~ =)
.... You calling me a crazy fan? I'm not crazy. I'm just.... obsessed. LOL.
It's sooo messy. But all their pictures are there! And eat that photo stealers. Bet you can't get through my watermark. Evil bznitches.
Anyway, I got some plain ones free for use as well. I took less than 10minutes on each. They are all 1024x768 pixels.
A Beautiful Lie - Black
A Beautiful Lie - White
Yes. Free for use. Why? Because I'm awesome like that. =)
Oh gawd, I'm beginning to talk like Josh. =(
And yes I got the boys to sign the wallpapers for me too.
Since I love you guys so much....
Here's A Beautiful Lie. Full Mp3. Ripped by your's truly. This is the only ONE time I say you can download song. Cause this is what you call, sharing music. Letting people know how awesome 30 Seconds To Mars is.
But mostly because Josh said he'll MAYBE coming back to Singapore again. That's why I'm so nice today. Haha.
Don't know when though. Ah well. When there's a 'maybe', there's a chance.
A Beautiful Lie.mp3 (Right click and save target as...)
LOTS OF LOVING TODAY!! Remember to pay it forward to your loved one.
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- My 10th Baby -
Yup my 10th baby: "Don't Waste Your Time On Me, Honey" is done.
It was just a scrap piece of paper at first with a few stanzas. I think I know where it came from.
My hatred for that good for nothing son of a biznitch.
(Pardon my language folks.)
Anyway, what's done has been done. I'm glad it happened though. Long story. I can't be bothered remembering what happened. So whatever.
Don't Waste Your Time On Me, Honey
©Quarter Past Chaos
It's getting late and you're still not home,
Don't bother calling cause I know it's gonna be the same old excuse again.
Telling me you're out with your friends,
And don't stay up for you cause you're gonna be back late.
Well guess what?
Give me back my life you took,
I don't belong to you or anyone else,
I've had enough of you.
This will be the last time you'll hear from me,
So long.
Don't waste your time on me honey,
You think I hadn't noticed it at all?
I was a decoration, a label as your 'baby',
I was nothing to you. I was just a doll.
And guess what?
I'm taking back my life you stole.
I don't belong to you or anyone else,
I've had enough of you.
This will be the last time you'll hear from me,
So long.
You're fading away,
Remeniecing all the times we shared.
Now wait a minute,
Fuck that. What memories we had?
We never shared any times together,
I'd rather be alone now, anywhere on my own.
Cause damn that's so much better,
Better than being chained to you.
Goodbye, aren't you happy now?
Don't worry no tears will fall from these eyes.
I can't believe I'd let myself fall for you.
Blinded by your secrets and lies.
Oh and guess what?
This life? It's mine now.
I don't belong to you or anyone else,
I've had enough of you.
This will be the last time you'll hear from me,
This will be the last you'll ever hear from me,
Goodbye.
Labels: Chaos' Babies
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Forgotten @ 2:02 PM
- You got Internet Trend [1] (inside joke) -
Found this. I love filling in stuffs. So yeah.
------------DESCRIBE---------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: I don't wear shoes at home. LOL.
[x] Your fears: I got a long list of them. Death is at the top. That and my favorite bands breaking up. T_T
[x] Yourself: Crazy, paranoid, lazy.
[x] Your physique: I guess I'm pretty short, ugly and fat. Yup, I'm your worst nightmare.
[x] Your room: Messy. 'Nuff said.
----------------WHAT IS--------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on MSN/AIM/YIM: lol, uh, HAHAHAHA, afk. brb
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: It's 3pm?! Oh shoot. =(
[x] The first feature you notice on the opposite sex: Eyes. EYES. EYESSSS. XD
[x] Your bedtime: Depends. 10pm-5am range.
-----------YOU PREFER-------------
[x] Pepsi or coke: Pepsi. Eventhough it sucks. Can I choose sprite? XD
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King. Although I much prefer McDonalds fries. =)
[x] Adidas or Nike: Adidas. But I'm poor for any of them.
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: ....icecream?! Vanilla works well with everything. Mmm float...
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: *goes hysteric* I CAN'T CHOOSE!!! T_T
----------------DO YOU----------------
[x] Smoke: Nope
[x] Cuss: Depends on who ticks me off.
[x] Take a shower: WTF? Duh.
[x] Want to go to college: Depends. Wait what? I'm already 20. -_-
[x] Like(d) high school: Hmmm... yup.
[x] Want to get married: Depends. LOL.
[x] Type with your fingers on the right keys: I guess. Like 95% of the time.
[x] Believe in yourself: I do. Nope I don't. Maybe?
[x] Get motion sickness: Hell yeah. Too easily. T_T
[x] Think you're a health freak: Nope.
[x] Get along with your parents: Depends. Most of the time, yeah.
[x] Like thunderstorms: A beautiful weather to sleep in.
[x] Play an instrument: Attempt at guitar playing, playing 'Twinkle, twinkle little star' on the piano/keyboard and off-tune recorder playing.
-------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID/HAVE YOU---------------------
[x] Go to the mall: Yeah.
[x] Eaten sushi: Fuck sushi. -_-
[x] Been on stage: Last month? Nope.
[x] Made homemade cookies: Nope, my oven is busted the last time I did it. XD
[x] Dyed your hair: Nope.
[x] Stolen anything: ? Nope.
---------HAVE YOU EVER---------
[x] Flown on a plane: No. I'm scared of airplanes.
[x] Missed school because it was raining: Hahahaha. That's my reason for not coming to school in the first place. XD
[x] Cried during a movie: Oh yes. During 'Happy Feet'. T__T Shut up.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot: LOL! All Final Fantasy dudes are hawt. =)
[x] Had an imaginary friend: Nope. My imagination sucks.
[x] Cut your hair: Duh.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher: LOL! I guess not. Does female teachers count? X_X
[x] Gotten beaten up: Yeah. Garh.
[x] Shoplifted: Nope.
-----------FAVORITES---------------
[x] Shampoo: Anything nice smelling and protects colored hair. XD
[x] Fav Color(s): Black, red and purple
[x] Summer/Winter: I would love winter. Summer sucks.
[x] Lace or Satin: ROFL. I hope this isn't what I think it's supposed to be.
[x] Fave Cartoon Character: Spongebob Squarepants!!! Or Peter from Family Guy. LOL
[x] Fave Food: Waffles, pancakes, pizza, PIE....
[x] Fave Sport: I don't do sport honey.
-------TYPE YOUR NAME WITH--------
[x] Fingers: chaos
[x] Nose: fuyw90we
[x] Toes: chaos
[x] Ear: s5yg1qiw2
[x] Wrist: c\hzzos
[x] Chin: cvhyasosd
[x] Tongue: chaos
I officially feel like an idiot after doing that test. LOL.
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Forgotten @ 9:59 AM
- Woke Up Early Today? Weird. -
Reason: I can't sleep.
My mind is nothing but an absolute chaos. I don't know why. Can't stop thinking about... stuffs. It keeps reeling back and forth like an advertisement on TV. Like when you watch 'Heroes' on Star World. The most exciting part comes and the show switches to advertisements. And you know you can't leave your TV set cause you won't know when the ads end and you can't afford to miss any part of the show.
Wait. That does not have anything to do with my sleeping problems.
Well, you know what I mean. Tossing and turning at night. Le Sigh. Must be the after effects of caffeine. But I haven't had a cup for like.. a month now. Happy birthday to non-caffeinated-day, Happy birthday to non-caffeinated-day.
Geez that was crap.
But I DID have a cup of Milo today. LOL. It's been so long since I had one. I actually forgot how hot chocolate taste like. Ugh.
And I got knocked down by an inconsiderate driver yesterday. Nope, contrary to the popular belief, my life did not flash past before my eyes.
By 'an inconsiderate driver', I mean my brother on his skate scooter. He was skating around the house and as he turned into the hallway, he didn't see me coming out from the other side and collided into me.
Sigh. And he thought that was really funny hearing me scream a note, unreachable to the human limits.
-_-"
Let's hope today is a better day. I'm gonna spend the day finishing off "Don't Waste Your Time On Me, Honey" today.
I hope this one doesn't turn out as bad as the previous one. Le Sigh.
"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me"
-Green Day (Boulevard of Broken Dreams)
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- Yucks. This Is My Most Saddest Attempt Yet -
Seriously. This sucks. But just for your laughing entertainment only. And I'm saving my works here just in case my laptop died or my house catches fire.
With the fish tanks and overloaded power sockets, I think the latter is most likely to happen first.
'Life' Is Just One Letter Away From 'Lie'©Quarter Past Chaos
She's everything that a person could ask for,
Perfect with a glow of beauty in the light.
If she had everything she could ever wished for,
Then why does these tears keep falling at night?
Cameras flashing away at every step she takes,
Smiling and posing as the cameras teased her.
But inside, she knows that she is just a fake,
Loneliness and emptiness covered in faux fur.
Life is just a letter away from lie,
Could she get this far if she'd told the truth?
Life is just a letter away from lie,
Don't you fake it, just tell them the truth.
A piece of paper can do everything nowadays,
It never meant much to her before.
She only wants people to notice her for who she really was,
Not by what they see and read in the magazines.
She's just a girl, she's helpless,
She has to continue living in these lies.
Living in a never ending cycle of fame and wealth.
Always being criticised under a thousand eyes.
Life is just a letter away from lie,
Could she get this far if she'd told the truth?
Life is just a letter away from lie,
Don't you fake it, just tell them the truth.
She's everything that a person could ask for,
Perfect and beautiful with a smile that never fades.
She covers all her pain and her feelings inside,
With makeup and hiding behind designers' shades.
Life is just a letter away from lie,
Could she get this far if she'd told the truth?
Life is just a letter away from lie,
Don't you fake it, just tell them the truth.
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Yucks, seriously can make use of a poem makeover. Heh.
But I love the title though. How true for some of us.
"Perfect by nature, icons of self indulgence..."
-Evanescence (Everybody's Fool)
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Forgotten @ 8:00 PM
- Whew I finally know how to animate icons... -
Took me like... 2 hours to make ONE pathetic icon. And it's not even huge. =(
Gah. At least I got some practice. For what? I don't know. It's fun.
And my moderating avvies and icons finally got registered. Whee~
Updates? My nose is still stuck, I'm still sadly jobless and I'm still hating life and myself.
So yeah, whatever.
PS: I'm not suicidal so you don't have to worry about that. =)
"I've been thinking of everything I used to want to be..."
-30 Seconds to Mars (The Story)
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- Reminiscing -
Sucks. I can't breathe through my nose. I can't smell which will make food taste tasteless. Grrr.
Ah well, at least it was kinda fun yesterday I guess. My feet aches.
Singapore sucks~~~~
Is there anything that I haven't do? That does not involve sport or extreme sport?
Cause I'm retarded with sports.
And don't say fishing. My dad fishes for our daily seafood. Yea, we don't buy fish. We CATCH them. Yeah we have our own uh.. boat? Sampan? Small boat? Whatever.
So I know what is a fresh fish when I eat one okay?
But I hate fish. So whatever. I can live without fish.
And I hate the sea. The insects, the mosquitoes, THE SMELL, the dampness. Everything about it. I'm not talking about the beach. I'm talking about the SEA. The smelly sea. The one where you catch the fishes. Not the one where you suntan on.
And I've been doing a lot of reminiscing/thinking lately. Thinking about my past, my present and my future.
I used to LOVE being on stage. Love performing. Love to dance. Love to sing. Heh. Yeah those were the times when you didn't know the meaning of ego or being ashamed. I was starting to sing before I knew how to talk properly. Of course I only mumbled the rhythms and made up my own words. Heck, my mom recorded me singing when I was like.... what 1+ year old? Or something. I got the cassette. But no cassette player. LOL.
I performed on my first stage at Teck Whye Community Center when I was in kindergarten. LOL. I'm sure Yani knows this. We're in the same act. XD
In primary school, I was in the Malay dance troupe. So yeah, I have performed on stage a lot of times. It used to be frightening at first. Seeing so many people staring at back at you, watching your every move. Heh, but after a while, the stage began to feel like my second home. I used to hang out on it with the drama club people after school. Of course not to mention the weekly training we had.
But when you hit your teenage years, your friends start to play a little more major role in your life. You begin to feel self-conscious about yourself. I began to stray away from the stage life. Turning my back on it. Cause I thought that was uncool.
I began to slacken. I chose the most slacking extra curricular activities - librarian. I was enjoying the air conditioned environment and stealing naps when the teacher on duty wasn't around. I skipped duties when the head librarian wasn't around. Hell yeah, I'm a rebel. LOL.
Nah, it's just that. I used to not care back then. I didn't care about anything then. All was just 'heck-care' as we used to say it.
Sigh. I would have been in an art school, drawing. Playing with clay and charcoal right now if I chose my interest. Or maybe act in a couple of scenes.
But noooo... I just have to go to Ngee Ann Poly. Why? Because it's closer. And why did I chose Chem Eng? I don't know..... I really don't know...
I failed maths. I HATE maths. I was never good with money or numbers.
But I bucked-up during my GCE 'O' levels. And got a VERY good score for my L1R4. Good enough for Chem Eng. They didn't need to consider me. They loved my score. -_- Gawd. I wished they HAD considered about it. Then I would be chucked in Interior Designing in SP by now.
Sigh. I wish I hadn't did what I did before. Whatever it was. I wish I hadn't did it. Now. I'm regretful. I am living in nothing but a white lie. I know this person is not who I really am inside. I hate everything that I am right now.
Can I turn back time? I hope it's not too late.
Sigh.
"A piece of paper can do everything nowadays..."
-Quarter Past Chaos ('Life' Is Just One Letter Away From 'Lie')
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Forgotten @ 3:48 PM
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- It's not funny Josh. It's not. -
GOD. I swear I'll get even with you one day. As much as I love you that you are giving me entertainment at the same time, don't ever. EVER. Show me a transvestite again.
I mean. I'm seriously not against homosexuality or anything. I'm a open minded and free spirited person. We are all humans. And if that's what you want to be. Then fine. I'm alright with it. I'm pretty fine with lesbians and gays. Don't worry.
And I'm talking about Jeffree Star.
After watching his(her?) interview you sent, I'm like... confused.
I'm confused if I should cry, laugh, pull my eyeballs out or watch Alanis Morisette "My Humps". I'm more confused than my normal hectic self now. Yeah thanks hun. I really needed that. -____- Geez.
And you wanna know what I think?
I think he(she?)'s pretty much awesome. He(She?)'s pretty open about his uh... lifestyle. Which I think is cool. Not very often you see guys in pink hair, pink clothes with fishnet stockings.
At this time, I'm ever so grateful that I'm straightedge. And with morals.
I'm kinda jealous that he(she) actually got a good body. Slim and his(her?) legs are like... WHOA. I want. =(
Le Sigh. I'm confused. I don't even know what I'm blabbering about.
Help me.
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- Today is a goddamn effing lazy day -
Raining. This weather always rocks. So gloomy and cold. Which also means, it the best weather to be as lazy as I want to.
Not to mention today is Friday the 13th. Heh. I'm not superstitious at all don't worry. I love Fridays - 13 or not 13, it's a nice day.
Thought I can go to some job agencies on Saturday. Turns out none of them are open tomorrow. And I don't blame them. Who would want to work on a Saturday anyway?
And I think I'm fully recovered now. My voice came back, but there's still a slight flu. Should be a-ok by tomorrow.
Think I should start working on some incomplete stuffs. Then again, I'm feeling so lazy to do anything.
It's good to be lazy once a while.
...what?
Ok fine, I'm lazy all the time. And it's good.
I'm having weird cravings for sardines sammiches. Or fried egg and cheese sammich with the yolk still wobbling about. Mmmm...
Mmm.. Sammich. All sammiches are nice.
Gawd. Why am I going on and on like an old granny?
Josh(ua) called today. Another expensive overseas call.
He hates people calling him by his birth name - Joshua C. M. Which gives me all the reasons to call him that.
Bahahahaha. =) Such a nerdy name for such an 'emo' person. No, he's not the real emo-emo sort of person - slashing wrists and taking videos of his suicide messages.
Nah. He's a real wuss seriously. And I know he'll be reading this. Still wanna call me a shorty? You tall Americans. =/
You're more terrified of a cockroach and a beetle than I do okay?
Ugh. I miss him and his freaking awesome hair. T_T
And I should stop calling him names. I'll be flamed with plenty of that later when he wakes up. Hah!
We never stop quarreling - in a good way. We're just two hard headed jerks who won't give up. -.- But I guess that's what keeps us together. Or it could be us sharing eyeliners. LOL!
I woke up at 1 today. Actually I could go on and on until 4 or 5pm seriously with this sort of weather. A beautiful weather to keep snoozing. But yeah, irritating phone call from Mr. Joshua. When I say irritating, I mean my ring tone. It's the high frequency tone. It's so goddamn irritating. But hey ringtones are supposed to be loud and obnoxious.
Like how a person is listening to their MP3 player at full volume and is oblivious to the default Nokia ringtone ringing helplessly in their bag. You keep on staring at the person (obviously annoyed) and the person just stares at you back blankly. And it just keeps ringing on and on until you can't take it anymore and you decided to pull out his earpiece and scream, "YOUR PHONE IS RINGING BUDDY!"
Remember that Josh?
You're such a jerk. Seriously. I remember laughing my ass off afterwards and you're like, "What's so funny? That ringtone is effing annoying."
I mean. KEEP YOUR COOL! Were you being abused or have bad childhood memories that involves that obnoxious ringtone? I mean, it's JUST a ringtone for crying out loud.
=I
Sigh. Good old times though. =)
GAH! Off-tracking again.
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Forgotten @ 3:04 PM
- OMG!! -
I know it's late and I should be sleeping. I just finished reading xiaxue's blog and.....
Oh My God!!!!!!1111one!!one11eleven11!1!!
I
WANT
HER
BUNNY!
It's so small and white. But the best part is, it LOOKS LIKE IT WEARS EYELINER!!!
I WANT IT!! It's so fuckin cute~!!! *DIES*
Argh. I will never learn. I had a rabbit once.
I found out that at one end, it's such a cute and harmless creature. But at the other end, nothing but pure concentrated evil comes out.
G.R.O.S.S
Hate cleaning it up.
In the end it's just gonna end up at one of my friend's house or the SPCA. T_T I'm such a bad owner. Same story.
GAH. I wished that bunny is a stuffed toy. Then there would be no problems for me. XD
Or I could just ask Josh to clean its poop. Ha-ha.
But knowing him, we would settle that and any arguments on a sport.
And since I'm physically challenged in ANY sport and I hate to admit that he's better than me, I'm forced to compete and get brutally beaten and laughed at.
Bully.
You're SUCH a gentleman, you know that?
Gah. But still... I love you. Hahaha.
It's not often I show my affectionate side, OKAY? I'm as about as cold as.... a scoop of Ben & Jerry's Cookie Dough icecream... So.. delicious... O_O
Alright, I'm beginning to off-track from my topic. Symptoms of sleep deprivation. T_T
BUNNY!!!! LOL.
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Forgotten @ 3:46 AM
- Whoo... Major Icon Making Day Today -
Finally. I'm done. It's 2:30am and I finished 44 avatars with 2 cellphone wallpapers. Yay.
My neck feels like beef jerky. Garh. A week old beef jerky. Eeeww...
Anyway, the icons should be registered on Iconator in 2-3days. Keep on a lookout.
Mostly 30 Seconds To Mars and Gothic stuffs. =P I still need to learn how to animate icons.
Ah well, I'm beat.
Family Guy, Spongebob and The Simpsons rawks my pants. (Because socks are so overrated. And since when did I call my phone a cellphone?! ARGH, it's all your fault Josh. T_T)
Oh. Speaking of Josh, as today is 13th April, I hereby declare our *ahem* 1st month together.
Hah!
Well not physically. We've only been together physically for 3 days! LOL. Come back to Singapore soon! Then we can continue counting the days to our physical monthsary. (Fuck. That was lame.)
Time pass pretty fast huh? Can't think of a poem right now. My mind has switched off.
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Forgotten @ 2:34 AM
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- Birthday Poem? -
You're one year older,
And one year wiser.
We got you this cake,
And it's all handmade.
So blow out the candles,
And make your first wish,
Cause today is your birthday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BISH!
Hahaha. VERY impromptu. Done on the spot. For 5-10 minutes. XD Doubt you will read it. HAHAHA!
Anyway, yeah. Happy birthday bden. Have fun in the wilderness. =)
Forgotten @ 3:11 PM
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- Sagittarians Hate Wednesdays -
WARNING: THIS ENTRY CONTAINS EXPLICIT LANGUAGE AND SENSELESS RANTINGS. READERS' DISCRETION ARE ADVISED.
I used to think that specific line, that came in with your star sign, is a bunch of bullshit. You know stuffs like;
Lucky Day: Thursday,
Bad Day: Wednesday?
Something like that?
Blah. I really hate Wednesdays now. I'm sure 75392034810 other people agree.
It's the only day in the week that is right smack in the middle. It's neither close to the weekends nor is it the start of the week. It's dead in the middle.
And the day seems to be longer than normal days as well.
Today, all hell breaks loose when my laptop decided to fail on me. It refuses to start and just stared at me with the blue "Windows is starting..." screen.
WHAT THE FUCK?! My Mp3s are in there. And no, I don't have a backup of it anywhere. And I'm lazy to borrow CDs from multiple people and have them ripped over AGAIN.
Losing my Mp3s didn't affect me much though. It's the pictures~ And my artwork~ And my poems~ And my stuffs. (It's not porn you perverted freaks.)
So yeah, after I finally got it back to life, (Smashing and abusing always works. LOL) the keyboard starts to fuck up.
It starts to randomly press letters without me exerting any force. It's not telepathy powers or spirits at work I'm sure of it. Gah.
Real bad ass day today. I need to make a backup of my files before the need to reformat arises.
Le sigh.
Josh sends me a video of Smosh. I love them. They are my YouTube entertainment channel. Heh.
But seriously though, be updated dear.
Those are 2005/6 news. Old skool. And wasn't it me who introduced them to you in the first place with their hit 'Pokemon music video' and you said:
*QUOTE*
"Geez, those dudes are a bunch of retards. Give me something more exciting to look at. Like... a raccoon in a dress. Or a bowl of expired milk."
Really? So who's the one sending me the link to 'Anthony Gets a Haircut' now huh?
Smosh rocks my socks seriously.
Go search for Smosh on YouTube. Watch their shows. Real entertainment by being dumb for the masses.
And I've been watching models on catwalks again. Some of them are real skinny. Someone ought to treat them to a piece of KFC's Hot and Crispy chicken for lunch.
Or at least a sandwich.
Linkin Park's 'What I've Done' ROCKS. Inspired me to the max. I always wanted to write a poem about that - About how fucked up we made the world now.
Beyonce feat Shakira - Beautiful Liar is ah-mazing. There's this one part of the vid, where both of them look like each other. And I can't freaking tell them apart! Not to mention Shakira is flaming H.O.T. =)
Oh and my eyes are fine now. Heh. I read in an article in a magazine that if you eat something that you are allergic to frequently, you will D.I.E. Pretty freaky.
Note to self: Aspirin can solve all my problems.
Just kidding there. I'm not suicidal. NOR am I emo.
It's just that sometimes I'm really oblivious to my surroundings.
Aspirin will look like Panadol. And before I know it, my eyes will bloat up to the size of a goldfish.
And I mean the size of the fish itself. Not just its freakishly huge eyes. And yes, it's that gross and big.
Somehow I find it hilarious looking at myself in that condition. Like Quasimodo. You know. That Hunchback of Notre Dame?
Yeah I'd make a fine wife for him.
Anywho, don't get excited. Allergy is not a funny thing. You can DIE from it.
But something that you should get excited is when you order regular fries and then you find a curly fry in there. Now THAT'S exciting.
Yeah, I'm too sarcastic today. But it's true though. About the fries.
I should end this before your eyes start to glaze over and you lose all your sense of humor.
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- Dedicated To My One And Only Joshie -
You always keep telling me that you're feeling insecure and stuffs like that. And I don't blame you. We're 5,000 miles away from each other - You in the states and me back in Singapore. Anyone in our shoes would feel insecure and uncomfortable if they were in mine (cause I have small feet).
So I wrote you something. This is an impromptu work. Completed within an hour or so. Some lines will suck, I know. All my poems suck. Hah!
Anyway, here it is:
Through Your Eyes
©Quarter Past Chaos
There's something about you,
And I can't tell exactly what it is.
You never fail to make me laugh,
When I don't want to smile again.
But there's a hidden secret in your eyes.
Each time you laugh and each time you cry.
You can't hide it any more from me,
Cause I can tell it all....
Through your eyes,
I can sense your pain.
In your eyes,
You can't hide again.
I'm here for you and this is true,
We won't be lonely now,
There's me and you.
Forever night and never day,
That's how I always want it to stay.
You said you won't catch me if I fall,
Cause you won't let me fall at all.
But there's a hidden secret in your eyes.
Each time you laugh and each time you cry.
Don't hide it any more from me,
Cause I can see it all....
Through your eyes,
I can sense your pain.
In your eyes,
You can't hide again.
I'm here for you and this is true,
We won't be lonely now.
There's me and you.
Your presence can brighten any darkest hour,
Your smile is like a sunshine after the rain.
When you held me close and I hear you breathe,
And when you look at me,
I know what you're thinking cause....
Through your eyes,
I can sense your pain.
In your eyes,
You can't hide again.
I'm here for you and this is true,
I promise I will never leave you,
We will never be lonely again,
Cause there's me and you.
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Ok? Hope you got my hidden message I'm trying to tell you in there.
Some lines are adapted from other songs like :
"Forever night and never day" - 30 Seconds to Mars' tour name
"Sunshine after the rain" - 98°'s Because of You.
Heh. It's a lame, old, crap, pop song I know, but it's our song. =) I just HAVE to fit in that line somewhere in there.
Now that I read it again, it looks so pop-like. XD
PS: This face owns all of your socks ! (。◕‿◕。)
PPS: Face only can be seen on computers that support Chinese/Japanese characters.Labels: Chaos' Babies
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- FFX -
Stumbled on this. CLICK HERE!
I suddenly feel I'm so dumb leveling all my characters on FFX. Whoever made this video, you pwns. Pure skill.
Update: My eye is still swollen. But getting better than yesterday. Hah!
My eyes were like goldfish's seriously. My nose and eye will start to run. And yeah. I'm a real mess.
And eating is no walk in the park either.
Every time I swallow, it's like, swallowing a gummy bear. Except that it is in chili flavor and covered with thorns. GARH.
Dying soon. And I got a nightmare I was being chased and stalked by a serial killer. He slashed me and before he could stab me one last time, my mom woke me up - at 4pm. She thought I had died in my sleep. LOL.
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- Officially Down With Fever -
Chaos is sick for the whole day today. And her eye is swollen. Gah!
Think it's cause she ate an aspirin, thinking it was Panadol.
Yeah, she's allergic to aspirin.
Surprise!
Now you know how to kill/poison her chemically.
Anyway, she spent the day finishing one of her past works - "I'm Sorry" Can Be One Of The Hardest Thing To Say ("Forgive Me" Is The Next)
She already published it up on the front page. She has completed 7 of her creations up-to-date. Just a few more left. By 'a few more' she means 15 more. And a little gentle reminder of the penguins if you steal. (1st Archive)
Why did she even bothered telling this?
Not that anyone cares.
But it's her blog. So STFU.
Then she can start on her 2007 project. Yeah, those were 2005 stuffs. She procrastinate too much.
Le Sigh. Hard to type with one eye swollen. Hard to see as well.
Yeah, laugh all you want. It's pretty hilarious seeing Chaos in this condition. Almost as hilarious as seeing Alanis Morissette covering B.E.P's My Humps. Go search on YouTube.
She's also dug up all her Linkin Park CDs and ripped them into her laptop - Hybrid Theory, Reanimation, Meteora and that Collision Course mash up with Jay-Z. Yup she's a crazy LP fan. Just need those Underground V1.0-6.0 CDs.
Waiting patiently for May 14th. The day their 3rd album 'Minutes To Midnight' is released. Mark it on your calendar. May 15th for those in the states.
Her dad hates LP as much as her mom hates My Chem. LOL.
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- Ugh -
Chaos lost her voice today. Throat infection. Commonly known as sore throat.
She's wearing her 'favorite' blue pullover sweater. Which means, she's feeling under the weather today.
Her obsession with Linkin Park is baaaaccckk. Beware.
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- It's 3am And I Can't Sleep -
Feeling too heaty. Could be a fever coming up soon. Bleh. Anyway, did the colorgenics test cause I've been infected with the internet trend virus.
My results are scary. Cause it is true. =(
You are feeling really miserable at this time and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special 'someone' must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.
Did I tell you I also hate MTV for making the bands I love mainstream?
I realize My Chem is now nothing more than just another teen idol band in which fangirls go crazy at how hot the lead frontman is. The rest of the band members are just there for show. Wow.
Update: They have 5 members in the band. Yes 5. My Chem does not equal to Gerard. This is to all those who thinks so otherwise.
They love them not cause of the music they made but *in a squeaky girly voice* "Cause Gerard is such a major hottie!" *squeals*
What the FUCK?! Seriously.
MTV just destroyed one of the greatest bands ever. Blah. But I shouldn't be ranting about it. I should congratulate My Chem for making it this far.
If MTV ever, EVER, make 30 Seconds to Mars mainstream, I would seriously go back in time and become a hippie protesting against animal cruelty and be a vegetarian.
Then again, Jared being a teen idol IS hilarious. Heh. He's turning 36 this year. Old enough to be your dad. I mean. Matured enough. I hate the word old.
Blah, if anyone ever treats Jared like an object instead of a person, I'd have the whole Echelon army beating the crap out of whoever that will be. Respect him.
Hah. Oh. Since it's already 9th April today:
Happy 30th Birthday Mr. Gerard Way!!!!
My Email to G:
First off, one year has passed and I'm sure a lot has been happening to you and your band. Just want to say congratulations. Congratulations for writing and composing one of the greatest record in like.. ever. And yes, screw whoever labels you as an emo band. Actually screw whoever made the definition of the word emo itself. Labeling is stupid. You guys are awesome! Being down to earth and just being yourself is what makes My Chem unique.
Anyway, let us not ramble on and on about your band. You guys are successful. Keep it up. But today is your day. Your special day. I wish I could be in Sweden at your concert right now. But due to some circumstances and restraints, I can't. I guess this email would work. I'm sure lots of fans would be celebrating your birthday at the concert. Hah, I'm missing out on all the fun.
[This part is personal LOL]
PS: Come to Singapore one day alright? We love for you to drop by. And stop smoking please. You've managed to stop your alcoholism habit, I'm sure you can stop smoking. You have the whole MCR army who loves and will support you all the way.
Rock On!
Hah, I know it's pretty lame. =3 And I censored that one part there.
Kay time to sleep. It's already 4am. BLEH.
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- Dear Diary, today I'm feeling weird... -
And I wrote this.
Dissonance ©Quarter Past Chaos
Broken and bruised,
With tears running down her face,
No one seems to hear her,
And no one seems to care.
A watch tells the time, but can never turn it back,
For all the mistakes she'd made and all the lies they had said.
A broken heart can be healed, but it won't be complete.
Each time she tries to fix, she ends up breaking it again.
Emptiness and pain was all she ever felt,
With no one to love and no one to hold.
She's drowning in tears, surrounded by fears.
It's driving away all the sanity in her.
Broken and bruised,
With tears running down her face,
No one seems to hear her,
And no one seems to care.
All the smiles they had shown, all the tears they had wept,
All was just a faux cover, inside, they never really cared.
She can see right through them, it's clear,
They don't have to pretend any more to her.
She's screaming... Screaming for the pain to stop.
It's breaking her apart, hurting her inside.
She's screaming... Screaming for it to end.
But no one can hear her.
She's all alone now.
All alone.
Broken and bruised,
And tears running down her face,
But no one seems to hear her,
And no one seems to care.
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Very weird. I re-read this and I became depressed. =(
Sometimes this happens. My mind automatically writes stuffs. And my hands just following what my mind tells it to do.
It would be awesome if I can hear this as a song. Or any one of my writings. Heh. Big ambition. And pretty silly as well. Forget it.
Note: April 13 coming. =)
And my body rejects coffee now. Hooray! No more addiction. I can lead a normal and healthy life now.
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Forgotten @ 11:07 PM
- Yucks Depression Test -
Hahaha... Yucks I got a major problem with cyclothymia? Hmm explains the reason why sometimes I'm so hyper and the next I'm as gloomy as Eeyore. Ah well, everything else seems to be fine. It's called mood swings not depression.
Anyway, I wanna share with you guys some stuffs that me and Josh spoke of yesterday. We're like two English language scholars when we talk. =/ Bah. This is what I found out:
If you look at these words long enough, you'll begin to wonder if they are actual words or not.
Words like:
- learn
- paper
- street
Just look at them. As a whole. Individually. Write them out many times. I don't know but it affected me very often. I wonder if there is a term for this condition. LOL.
And people with Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia shouldn't read on. What is that? It's a phobia of long words. Kinda contradicts the whole word itself don't you think?
People in New Zealand should know of this place: Taumatawhakatangihangakoauauotamateaturipukakapikimaungahoronukupokaiwhenuakitanatahu
Hahaha. I'm not joking. Go google it out.
And there is a lake in Massachusetts, that is named:
Chargoggagoggmanchauggagoggchaubunagungamaugg
LOL. I realize how much the people there loved the word 'G'.
And this is just ridiculous:
Krung Thep Mahanakhon Amon Rattanakosin Mahinthara Ayuthaya Mahadilok Phop Noppharat Ratchathani Burirom Udomratchaniwet Mahasathan Amon Piman Awatan Sathit Sakkathattiya Witsanukam Prasit
All that can be shortened to Bangkok. Like. Whoa.
A: "Welcome to *takes a deep breath* Krung Thep Mahan............ Prasit"
B: "What did you just called me?"
Hahaha. Gawd. There are also several places in Norway and Sweden with the name Å.
UGH. After seeing all those names, I think I may have hippo-what-cha-ma-call-it-phobia as well. But still it's kinda cool.
And my house is definitely spooked.
Objects floating in the middle of the night is far from normal. I wanna install close circuit cameras all over the house (with night vision support of course), and let you guys see the occurances. Cause narrating it isn't half as scary than seeing it for yourself.
The most spooked place? My kitchen and my brother's room.
My room? Nah. Just once, the door of my closet slides open and closed by itself. And that was a long time ago. Occurances like this happening so often makes me kinda sick and tired of spirits. LOL.
Old haunted houses are scary. Because:
1. There's always spiders (spiders and cobwebs can make anything look scary)
2. The house is totally empty (I have a phobia of huge empty houses)
3. The look of an old abandoned house itself is scary.
4. Lighting and thunder always makes haunted houses scarier
My house isn't that bad. And the occurances never seems to harm us. So yeah, I find it pretty normal living with a couple of other non-human beings under the same roof.
Hah, anyway, I got a couple of shots of my dad's marine fishes in my online photo album. Links is at the last navigational 'X'.
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- I Think I Should Stop Tweaking Before I Go Insane -
I learned a neat-o-trick with CSS today. Look at the top of each page. I can make fonts overlap now.
And I need to stop being a perfectionist. I've been doing minor tweaking here and there for the whole day today! Sheesh. Ah well, at least I learned a couple of HTML and scripting. Which sucks by the way.
Aiming to be perfect,
In this less-than-perfect world.
People trying to be what they aren't.
Lying to themselves and everyone.
-The World Would Be A Better Place If People Would Just Shut Up and Listen
©Quarter Past Chaos
A small part from one of my creations.
Note to self: Stop writing love sick poems. I need to read more variety. =/
Chatted with Josh on MSN today. I kinda miss having him around. Bleh. I feel like writing something. LOL. Another love sick poem I bet.
Every one of my creations are either related about love, or death. I'm so... narrow minded. I'm not sure if "narrow minded" is the correct term to use here. But I tried changing my ways of writing and I ended up with vampires and blood. -_-
Need more substance to write about. I'm planning to go to Botanic Gardens and snap some photos. That would clear my mind a little.
Yeah, that would work. Just hope it doesn't rain.
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